2009 has just been a very rough year for me. I'm really losing a lot of things that are important to me. For the first time in my life, I'm ready for a year to end. I pray to God that 2010 will be better than this year, because I truly hate every minute of it. For someone as wonderful as Marcus to suddenly die, it's put everything on the edge. Suddenly theatre feels less like a hobby and more like a burden. Suddenly I've got no motivation to do anything, and the things that do motivate me, I end up not getting to do them at all. I'm losing so many opportunities and things that I love. I'm just so ready for this year to close.